An Unbecoming Beginning!

Hello out there and hello in there (since really I'm writing this for me- I mean, does the world need yet another blog about a person who is grappling with gender issues and is finally dealing with the fact that they've never been happy or real as a guy? Hell no- and I love that! There are so many of us now that our trial and tribulations are getting a bit thin...and boredom is the first real step toward society accepting us. Hence, my goal is to bore the crap out of anyone desperate enough or bored enough to venture into my world. Simple huh? Simple like a fox.....

I guess my story is a little different from most on the web in that the big wave is the younger generation...late teen and 20-something trans people who found themselves much sooner and had the resources to act on their dreams. I'm not that generation. The internet was nowhere when I was a teen and the circumstances were such that only a really remarkable person could forge ahead and redraw the gender line....sadly, I am not that person. But I am the kind of person who after four decades of fighting and hiding (mostly hiding :) ) from this dragon- I'm taking it by the tail. So I'm not a totally asshole coward...right?

In a nutshell introduction-I'm a transgender person, diagnosed as a transexual- but very adaptive. I don't hate my male body and while the issue has shadowed most of my life and most of who I am...it hasn't paralyzed me. I'm in therapy and out to most of my family and close friends, even my boss...but I'm not sure just how I'm going to proceed in unbecoming. Do I jump all the way, do I say- fuck the bipolar gender structure...what? I have a child to think about as well and that's complicated.

So I'm going to get it down on cyber-paper and hope that it helps me sort things out and maybe enlighten a few folks. And bore the rest of the world.

Boring like a fox!

XO